nice Eid al-Adha

yesterday i was invited to turkish Eid al-Adha celebration.
i felt a different world in Poland.
turkish boys are handsome
turkish girls are nice
every people there are friendly
they laughed they talked
they took photos with me
their culture is also attractive

it reaaly makes me want to go to turkey!

psychology is everywhere

There must be sth happened today.
She saw that her classmate
and she was quite nervous.
she wanted to say sth and would have a nice talk with him.
but today still a normal day
there is no something miracle
when the lecture is over
evertbody started to get out of sala
he was standing near the exit
she passed him and said "hi"
it should be"bye" or ....
but nerver "hi"
it was so strange she thouht
she got upset
she didn't see anything special from his eyesight
she really means nothing to him
yes it is true
in his eyes,she 's  just a classmate
and nothing to say with

what is the situation now
a sort of psychology?
i don't know

learn it,live it and love it

now i am thinking about "why am i going home?"
maybe you are wondering why do i ask such question to myself
i can say just because i don't miss home now
study schedule is very clear,and the every life is in a regular way
life is beautiful with 3 kind roomates
earning money by myself
cooking for myself
everything's subject is "myself"
when i am unhappy,i have friends to talk with
when i am happy,i have friends to share
Papa,mama you really don't need to care about me
i go to travel,experience different people,see different scenery
even though i am still a little not accustomed to such environment,
i have tried,and much better now
i can dance naturelly in front of people and don't care others' eyesight
i am not afraid of new things which happen soon
the resource of tha happy life is to control oneself well

the psychology is really mysterious,i just knew it's about mind
and now i can say it's not only about mind heart,it also conclude something about biological things.
learn it,live it and love it

有一个女孩 叫茉莉

Molly,are you OK?

small diary

psychology is difficult and a little complicated.but i think the biggest challenge for us is totally understanding what teachers said .

OK.take it easy.let's do it step by step.

just say something

happiness is what we want
and we really are happy if we think we are
mostly it depends on what you thought

i feel this week is too slow to pass
maybe every day was the same
no any different
today i just noticed there are only 2 days left for some friends going back to China

time flies
the day before yesterday
my father asked me if i wanted go back home
i said"no"……it's not the right time
next year will be very hard for us
we should study more and more
the more we learn,the easier the chanllenge will be
i just have been here for 3 months
it's a very short time
even summer holiday will last 3months from now on
it still can't make me want go back

i know clearly what my aim here
not only experience a different world,but also improve my temper and ability
which are more important
i have to repeat it again and again in case i will lost

i know it's boring to repaet one thing again and again
but you know i just want to write something
and acyually i have nothing to write about
sometimes we can't freely talk to each other,i know it's weird
but it's true
maybe it is a kind of psychology
yeah i think so……

ok that's all today

happy

today Drew organized a party in class
he asked us to take food whatever we want
i made dumplings,i think it's a traditional chinese food
i got up very early and started
this is my first time to make this kind of food on my own
i just depend on my memory of my mother cooking it
i have to say dumpling wrap per is the most difficult work
it took me almost one and a half hour to prepare the wrap per
time isn't enough
but luckily i finished almost on time

i was very nervous
and i was wondering if Drew and my friends like it
i don't know what polish classmates think
but Drew and my friends appreciated it
their affirmation really make me happy
and i do believe that "do what i want to do and do something i think is right "

Drew is going back to New York
i feel a little sad
but i know this kind of feeling will pass soon

best wishes to him

how could i fall in love with it

i know that if you want to do something well
you must love it
at this moment the most important thing for me is falling in love with study
but you know it isn't a easy thing ,at least for me
recently i did nothing at home
i felt so bad
i want to do something
but i am too lazy to do something
i konw it isn't very nice
i want to overcome it
i know we should overcome many things
but it really needs time
and how we could defeat it

i am wondering why don't i love study.
maybe i love too many things
everything=nothing

i admit sometimes i am really passive
ok i should improve many characters
could someone give me a light????

something back

thank Julie's boyfriend again
for fixing my laptop
it works now
i'm so grateful for what they did
i have to say some polish boy is really kind all the same

today i went to Chopin Park with Lucy
we really like that place
and we feel the difference from China now
when i walked on the cobbled road in the trees,saw the beautiful grass and flowers
we both felt happy and fresh
our humor became so good
all the bad feeling has gone
as karolina said we should go outside to experience the world
today we experienced the nice park ,the rain,the wrong bus ,the ticket inspector(lucy paid for her mistake),the rainbow,the promenade
everything is wonderful
i realised
no one could take the happiness away from me
i should be confident and trust myself:everything could be solved

stupid question without answer

why don't you know i am thinking about
why don't you know what i am doing
why don't you know what kind of girl who i am

i know these are stupid questions
i just want you know something without i telling you
couldn't you pay more attention about me
i really don't think it is too much

confused

recently i find it hard to grasp the accademic vocabulary
these words are so similar to one another
i am always confused about them
i feel so bad every time to see the terrible result of the test
what did i do with my english
did i try my best
the answer is "not"
oh gosh

write on Mother's Day

today is mother's day
i thought of my mother
i strongly resemble her
further appearance and character
we just look like twins
only she is 32 years older than me.
she is not only my mum but my best friend.
she is best know to me.
when i was unhappy,she could make out easily and then had a talk with me .
she took care of me meticulously.
when i was in high school ,the stress of study was so strong.
i had to study very late every night and get up early every morning
she always kept accompany with me at night and prepared snack
she always woke me up and before i got everything ready she had cooked very nutrient and delicious breakfast.
my high marks of Gaokao mostly own to her
nomatter what decision i made,she always supports me and encourages me to be good.
when i have some progress in study ,she is so proud of me and tell every family member .

this is the picture of my mother ,my sister and i.
it is thaken 16 years ago,at that time i was only 3 years old.
there is a very famous chinese saying"three women is a show"
that is tureO(∩_∩)O~
now i am so far away from my mother
i hope she will be happy and healthy forever just like now

out of breath

time flies
i have been here for one and a half month
the fresh feeling is gone
the effete feeling left
i wanna shout
i wanna drain
i wanna find a place where i can express my feeling totally at my pleasure
there i can shout,sing loudly,or even cry

just talking to my family,friends isn't enough
a feeling of losing breath always inside my heart

maybe i can find a person to quarrel with,even fight
hahaO(∩_∩)O~ maybe that's a good way

sorrow

i'm very angry about some polish
why they did this to us
i feel very aggrieved yesterday
why they poured most my facial washing milk
do i did something upset them ???!!!
i don't want talk dirty or something else
i treat them very kindly
but to my surprise
unexpectedly
they did this for change

i think we are really different……

Sixth V

i can't bear my roomate such a behavior

what should i do ……

Fifth V

Recently i 'am in a very good mood
the good relationship with new friends
the good result of entrance examination
the big progress of my cooking……
everything is fine now

my homesick is much better now
i can contact with my family everyday online
and now i'm interested in reading news and some texts on the internet
outward-looking is very useful and necessary for me

i read some famous chinese media workers'blog
and found some very inspired information which can make people cheer up
i 'll keep it in my heart

Fourth V

Next life
i wanna be a tree
no separation,no changes
even if it is going to wither up,it won't leave behind everything that it know well ...
stay with my family,friends forever
even sitting across the window...
sometimes
think about the distance
try to pull the tail of sunset everyday
don't want to lose the warmth in the eyes
brilliant，for recent separation and the whole lonly season
splendid apperance,but a lonely heart
friend who stands by myside, do you feel it?
suppress inside heart makes me eager to night's coming
let everything disappear in the darkness ,include the crying heart...


PS:just a try to make a translation，not my original artical

Enjoy Easter Day

yesterday
we were invited to Ela's home to celebrite Easter Day
we were very excited
we took whole morning to buy flowers and get to Ela's home
fortunately we got there on time

Ela's family gave a warm welcome
her dog is also very friendly
i was scared of dogs
but yesterday i was more relax than i used to be
Carolina's family had been there earlier than us
we were so glad to see her lovely daughter
Anne and Lucy were eager to hold her in the arm
but little girl was very shy and wouldn't give them a hug

we sat down and began to creat our own design-decorate eggs
we treated our designs very seriously
to my surprise ,my design looks not bad
quite beautifulO(∩_∩)O~

the most memorable thing is food
they were so delicous that we ate so much
the bacon ,the sauce,the salad,the dessert
the chocolate was so great
oh my god i 'll slaver again

we went to church
this is my first time to join the religious activities
maybe the food we prepared was to for Jesus
we were spelt
maybe that means we would be blessed
hope so……

we communicate totally in english with our teachers
i feel very good
because all the classmates usually talk to each other in our mother tongue
it isn't good to improve our english
i really a liittle worry about whether we understand what teachers say in psychology class soon

the day afer tomorrow we will take the extrance examination
i am a little nervous
after all i have been here only 3 weeks
i kown clearly my english isn't good enough

whatever ,forget it
just do what i must do everyday
anyway this vacation we really had great fun

Third V

today i heard of my hometown has a little earthquake^……

fortunately today classes talked about disaster,of course earthquake included.

i really feel a little scared.

are all my family ok?

luckily they're fine .

my sis told me that was a samll earthquake.

it didn't destroy anything.

i suddenly breathed a sigh of relief.

nobody could predict natural and man-made disaster.

we all don't know what would be the next.

so

cherish every moment……

life as we know it can change in the blink of an eye.

do care our familiy ,friends and do something good for them

it needs real action

Second V

Today i felt very tied
i don't know why
just don't want to do anything
continue staring blankly
I have already felt the pressure of studing abroad
No matter it comes from life or study

Far away from my family and my close friends make me uncomfortable
Cold faces,unfriendly people……
If i can master english well ,maybe the situation will be better
The only thing i regret is that i havn't studied english very well in China
So i can't communicate with foreigners very fluently now

Whenever i saw some international students talk to each other in english happily
i felt very sad
i wanna join them
but i can't
at least i can't now

I'm very afraid of i can't understand what people talk to me
Even though i know there must be imperfect when someone does something new
i am still not brave enough to face to it

Hope it wil be better
Tomorrow is another day^……O(∩_∩)O~

First V

What is the kingcraft for me?

Studying and being thin is the answer.

I came here no matter how hard it will be in the future

because I know my aim, this is my dream.

If i get the diploma that i want and have the enough rich experience,

i'll be happy to help people out of the gloomy world.

And of course i wanna be well-paid .

Catering ,shopping,chatting with my confidant ,that is so nice,right?!

bon courage little J~ Just relax and enjoy this process.

Being thin as 45kg……oh my god that's the best state i dream for a very long time.

I imagine how well i dress the beautiful clothes and high-heeled shoes every day.

But what a pity.My stomach is always big.

Chocolate,pizza,cake,hamburger are really so attractive to me.

I can't bear myself any more.

Fatty doesn't have potential.It appears weak ,incompetent,hesitant……

I don't know ~~~I just don't want to be that

God please tell me how long should i wait for that day coming

God bless me .Fighting !